“and so, you fear yourself more than you fear your demons.”

– Aftermath, Kaila-Trish Masa

 

This line stood out to me as it stresses the internal struggle we all face, often fearing our thoughts more than any outside challenge. Kaila-Trish Masa's "in a sea of heartbeats" is a beautifully touching collection of poetry that explores the journey of losing and rediscovering oneself, ultimately embracing who we are. This poetry book is a heartfelt dive into emotions, catching the essence of coming home to oneself.

 

Among the many beautiful poems, these particularly resonated with me per theme:

 

sinking, co-existing: Kaila-Trish Masa beautifully captures a moment of profound connection and empathy. The poem paints a picture of two individuals sharing their grief, breaking down the invisible barriers that often separate us. I often call these individuals members of the "Grief Club," who share the same knowledge and vast perspective after losing something and know that grief isn’t always linear. This short yet powerful poetry underlines the healing power of shared experiences and the comfort of truly being seen by another.

 

drowning, temporary forever: This poem reflects on the fleeting nature of relationships and the emotional toll they take. We all experience that kind of love that leaves you hollow after it's over, and sometimes those remnants stay with us, lodged in our rib cage, just waiting for the moment when we feel the intense, lingering pain of a breakup. The imagery of eyelids as runways and the rib cage as a home for forgotten parts is both haunting and relatable.

 

drowning, if it does: This poem delves into the endless flow of thoughts and the paradox of wanting them to stop while fearing the stillness that might follow. There are moments when the noise inside your head becomes overwhelming, an unstoppable torrent. Even when you desperately try to silence it, it continues. In those times, as you long for sleep, a voice within insists you’re not allowed that peace. It's a brilliant portrayal of the human mind's struggles. 

 

drifting, more than this pain: This piece is a plea for relief from suffering. Every one of us, at some point in our lives, has felt trapped and struggled to reach the surface for a breath of air. Sometimes, we feel trapped for so long that we start to believe it will be our life. But remember, the agony is temporary, and you have the choice to act, to change it, and learn to live around the void. This poetry resonates deeply with anyone who has felt trapped by their pain, offering hope for something beyond the agony. Remember, living with a void may not be easy, but at least try, you exist. You, is worth fighting for. 

 

sailing, coming home: This poem depicts a journey from darkness to light, showing how even the darkest moments can transform into warm, welcoming spaces of self-acceptance. When the time comes, you will learn to love and accept even the darkest side of you, even the arduous history within you. You are a story worth sharing, and your journey will help others who are in darkness — be a boat to help them sail through, help them find their way home.

 

Poetry holds a special place in my heart because I see it as a form of literature that beautifully captures the essence of emotions and words. Masa’s words guide readers through the turbulent seas of self-discovery. Her introduction, “may you always be kind to yourself,” sets the tone for a journey that is both feeling and acceptance. It doesn’t hurt to act with kindness one step at a time, and this kindness applies not only towards other people but also to yourself.

 

Kaila-Trish Masa's "in a sea of heartbeats" is a must-read for anyone seeking solace and acceptance through poetry.